tired

tired of becoming someone that i dun like

tired of randomness...coz we'll never know what's beyond it

tired of having so many things to ponder on

tired of everything that tires me out

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please

i need a break

i need encouragement

i need bravery

i need strength

i love him
so much until i cant think straight
cant wait to be with him
cant wait to be his wife
cant wait to cook for him

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love u sayang

BFF

it hurts me
to think that im not doing my part in the friendship
to think that it is so hard to see them
to think that im not trying my best to go and see them

it really hurts me
when im not able to see them on regular basis
when im not able to console them with hugs and kisses
when im not able to
giggling
laughing
yelling
with them

im still hurt by the fact that I AM thinking about our friendship that begins to falls apart
am i wrong?

am i despicable for thinking that way? for having those feelings?

seriously
im hurt
badly saddened by the unfortunate tragedy

im hoping for the time to come back and fetch me so that i can go back to the old time
but surely there are no such thing

i need someone to talk to
i have problems ladies
i have issues that need you to help me with



i just need u

revamp

im still improving my English especially my writing skills
speaking skills will not be a major problem since im practicing it here in KT
minor problem would be in grammar since im also learning

being an English teacher is not easy
people expect more on you
people judge you differently
people sometimes misjudge you

i need to:
rejuvenate
recharge
rethink

i need to do some revamp

but first
i need ideas

see ya

gokusen

tibe2 terase cam nak jd yankumi dlm cite gokusen...blh????

2010

a lot of things happened recently..the bad ones and the good ones. being a new teacher is not an easy task..people expect the best from u and people expect u to learn by yourselves.i know that i should do that but in the end i still in need of my seniors to teach me something that i cannot learn by myself.sometimes i just dunno the right questions to be asked...not that i dun wan to ask. u get what i mean? people tell me and my rummie, mastura: "u guys ni cikgu baru tp sume bnda yg tak tau tu tak nak tny pastu nak ckp tak tau"...*panas tak telinga dengar??*

its not that we dun wan to ask, but sometimes we need our own time to resort things out...we need time to adapt and consume whatever knowledge that we need to find out. and sumtimes we just dunno what is the correct Q to ask.*dah klu nak tny buat mke taik camne nak tny kan??*

i had my emotion breakdown...a bad one. i cannot concentrate on my work, my kids and also to my encik yg dicintai...its hard to satisfy and impress other people aite?? tq to my frens and encik yg dicintai bcoz being so patient with me...im lucky to have all of them!

this year (since i report duty on Sept 2009), i had a lot of things to do since im a new teacher.haha...sgt penat n exhausted! had a lot of meetings and there'll be more to come. im just praying that i had the energy and the heart *ahaks!* to do...haha

ok la...enough with all of ramblings...need to catch up with my works.
daa!

my frustation

kdg2 kck ati ble kwn2 lme yg kte try contact sbnrnye tak nak contact lg ngan kte...

sedih kan??

saye msh sygkan mrk tp mcm takde reaction from them...

nak nanges

sedih sgt

:(